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OK… SO… Remember the other blog about the drugs? Of course you do. Anywho…. Guess what? there are more.

So, thank’s to a survey administered to me by “Life Skills” that apparently threw up quite a few flags, I am now also on Amitriptyline and Loratadine. I take one a day of each every day for the next 3 months.

Funny, this from the guy that didn’t take asprin for a headache. Now I have 5 perscription pill bottles sitting on my desk…

sigh

I’ve gotta broken heart again

Cuz we’re only supposed to be friends

You see he stole my old lady away from me

And now I’m so blue, so blue I can’t see

I’ve gotta broken heart again

Cuz I ain’t got no money to spend

You see I spend it all on long distance phone calls

Beggin her to please come home, yeah, yeah

Ah, yeah

It doesn’t matter what I do

I can’t stop, ah, thinking about you baby

The little things you said

The things you did to me in bed

Oh baby, I can’t get you outta my head

Oh, oh, gotta broken heart again, yeah

This time it’s serious

It feels just like the end

Cuz once your love has gone away

There ain’t nothing, nothing left to say

So I took this personality test where it asks you to answer questions as they related to you in your youth. I was honest as I could be as some of the questions only had choices that I didn’t agree with at all. Here is the result so those that know me pretty well, what do you think??….

Congratulations, SKi, you are a BLUE personality. The Core Motivation that drives you through life is “Intimacy”. It is important to note that this does not mean sexual intimacy. BLUES need connection - the sharing of rich, deep emotions that bind people together. As a BLUE, you will often sacrifice a great deal of time, effort, and/or personal convenience to develop and maintain meaningful relationships throughout your life.

BLUES seek opportunities to genuinely connect with others, and need to be understood and appreciated, especially by their partner. Everything you do as a BLUE has to be quality-based, or you won’t do it at all. You are incredibly loyal to friends, employers, employees, and above all to your significant other. Whatever or whomever you commit to is your sole (and soul) focus. As a BLUE, you love to serve and will give freely of yourself in order to nurture the lives of others.

BLUES have distinct preferences and are the most controlling of the four personalities, although they may not acknowledge (or even realize) the fact. Your code of ethics is remarkably strong and you expect others (not only your partner and those closest to you, but everyone) to live honest, committed lives as well. You enjoy sharing meaningful moments in conversation with your partner as well as remembering special life events (e.g. birthdays and anniversaries).

What do you do when they don’t work. When even the adreline, phenylethylamine, and serotonin from masturbation can not kill the pain?

I guess this is what drives some people to take the “harder” stuff. But what is there for those of us that don’t want to go down that road - or can’t?

I don’t think (many) people wake up in the morning and say: “How can I make life miserable for myself and some other undeserving party?”

We are all here experiencing the same reality, but from different perceptions - In effect creating different realities for each person. The funny thing is, we all have control of our perceptions, therefore having total control of our reality.

So what fuels us to believe what we believe? I think there are positive and negative motivating factors. Black and White. No grey area in between. But the lines still get blurred. Is it the drugs? The natural ones I mean. The ones in all of us.

So we get perscriptions. Either from a doctor, a dealer or a lover. We ‘need’ these to balance the chemical imbalance within us. Because we believe that the lines are blurred and we need clarity.

I suggest that the clarity that we need is masked by our own perceptions - our own reality - that we create based on life experiences. In order to change the reality, you have to change your life.

Not a menial task by any strech of the imagination. But with the proper support network (or lack of a network that is pulling you down), humility, honesty and good old stick-to-it-iv-ness it can be done.

If you have a love in your life, I mean someone that loves you unconditionally, don’t push them away. Use them. That is what they are there for. Even if it is the “reason” “season” bs. If there were no balance, then they would not be there offering themselves to you.

Create your own drug. Save the manufactured ones for a party.

This is a play on the old Eazy E song: No More Questions. Very impressed that they even remembered this. But then, this was the most talked about shit back then considering the age of the writers….

This is hot… she just became that much more hotter!!!